In Between Happenings

So I'm still working on the poem that I've been working on for some time now.  I think I may have to break parts of it apart and do other things with them, but that happens.  In the process of writing I went back and was looking for a poem where I used the line "held back by the serifs caught on my tongue."  That line took a lot of effort.  I think I can really rotate the entire poem around that line.  I really want to revisit this poem, Busted Afternoons.  I have liked Subdue the Rain for a long time now, but Busted Afternoons really shows emotion.


Current Poem in Progress:  dealing with my muse.  I have had quite a bit of inspiration to guide my poetry, and I definitely have grown from the ugh, just thinking about it makes my soul hurt, things I used to write like "Sippy Liquey."  Yeah, that was a bad one.  I moved on to write some better things, and I.... words, something, yep I lost it.


Get It Faster - Jimmy Eat World


Pretty cool video cover: Paramore doing a cover of Use Somebody - Kings of Leon


Back to current.  How do you explain pain and spiraling effects and edging on disaster?
Sing in me, Muse, and through me tell the story
of that man skilled in all ways of contending,
the wanderer, harried for years on end


Portraying this has been difficult and most of the reason this poem is not done.  I'm going to work on it today and see what happens.

Whoa Black Betty dah deh dah

At the moment, I am a wee bit hungover and VERY scatter-brained.

I'm set to go to Yuma, Arizona tomorrow for a couple days to see how my buddies in Bravo have been running their network.  Then we can see what we need to emulate for our impending operation.

I got pissed off at one of my sergeants last week and proceeded to yell at him in front of everyone.  I could have been written up immediately for that and lost my rank.  Kind of out of character for me, but he really pissed me off.

Song: Scream with Me - Mudvayne

I've been in a writing and drawing mood lately.  I drew three, one panel, comics last week.  Decently funny.  I want to write, but I'm just not sure where to start.  No lines are hitting me yet.  Expect to see "jade" for a while.

I have been loving my latest phone.  Let me check here.  First phone was a Motorola flip that I dropped down a flight of stairs and it still worked (Rob also had the same phone).  I may need to edit this later, forgetting.  I know I had the RZRv3 flip.  I think that was next.  Then the LG Chocolate slide.  Then the LG Versa.  And now the HTC Eris, which is a droid.  The new app I just got was a countdown timer.  Yep, I put my EAS on that baby.

EAS - 693 days.  99 weeks left.  A little under 2 years.

I bought a 2003 Mini Cooper on March 30.  I have been loving driving that car.  I named her Black Betty.

That's all I really have for now.

3rd Time is the Charm: Disposition

Disposition

End of heartache
Gorgeous is just a formality
Teeter on interest
Unbecoming and
Jaded disposition.

4/8/2010

Poem for Winter

A Winter Walk

I take a walk that is frequent in clairvoyance.

Shuffling my feet along to ease my mind because

I am riddled by temple hemispheres.

Drifted banks of snow, line the path I walk.

Indents into ankle high powder are the footsteps of my past.

I place my next foot over soft unique snowflakes

Which are then pressed into eight inch patterns.

Each footfall is a fresh start in any direction.

The chill breeze at my back edging me along

While I drag my feet with reminiscence.

Each step confronting openly the future.

My fingertips curled into my jade sweatshirt

Fumbling the leafs onto which I have written.

The papers fall to the wayside and scatter.

Meaning lost in diction and connotation.

Imagery forgotten with syllables and stress.

3/21/2010

Location, Location, Location

I had some firsts on my trip to Snowbird, Utah.
1. Snowboarding on some real mountains.  AWESOME!
2. Saki-bomb.  I had three.  They were okay.  Better beer might have made that a better experience.
3. Managing to get drunk in a state where 3.2% alcohol is all you can find.
4. Sushi.  I had multiple variations.  The best being shrimp something with wasabi.  I guess I always knew I wouldn't like sushi that much, but I finally did try it.  So eat it, whore.
5.  I realized that snowboarding with Evan could be the cause of my shoulder problems.
 a. One of my first times snowboarding we left Mt. Holly early because I hurt my shoulder.  
 b. Bear Mountain I fall off a rail and hurt my shoulder.
 c. I dislocate my shoulder at Boyne Highlands on a vert wall.
 d. I dislocate my shoulder at Nubs Nob by sliding out somehow.
 e. I dislocate my shoulder at Snowbird exactly the same as at Nubs Nob.
 f. I dislocate my shoulder at Snowbird by jumping off of a rock.
 g. I dislocate my shoulder at Snowbird by losing my edge and rolling.
6. I ran into my first pay for carry-on even though I am military.  Lame. $60.
7. I got wind-burn on my face so bad that I have a distinct goggle tan.  Sweet proof of my snowboard trip.
8.  Making up a drinking game with Evan.  Too bad Rob wasn't involved in this one.
 a.  At a reception or similar:  if someone orders a wine, 1 drink.
 b. Beer, 2 drinks.
 c. Mixed-drink, 3 drinks.
 d. Straight-drink, 4 drinks.
 e. Additional rules and variations are acceptable.


Pretty eventful vacation.  Totally worth it.

Commando

Congratulations DC on approving gay marriage. Hopefully the rest of the country will understand and get the point.  Fuck you Catholic church for not understanding.

I feel the need to express my feelings on sleeping in the nude.  This is like treating yourself to ice cream.  If you do it too often it is no longer a treat, it's just a thing you do.  I like to do it maybe twice a month.  It's relaxing, it's funny.  I woke up this morning and thought to myself, "shit I'm naked, oh yeah my roommate's not here, hmm, should I find underwear?"  This even applies when you're sleeping with someone else.  You don't have to spend every night with the other naked.  You also don't have to spend every night clothed.  Take a couple of days out of the month and sleep naked.  It's fan-fucking-tastic.

Furthermore.  I don't know why, I just felt that furthermore was the word I wanted to use.

New Shirts:  Yay I own new shirts with funny sayings on them.  Well, one repurchased shirt to replace a lost one, but two new and one replaced.  So YAY.

Wine Tour: the last place we went was not on the required list, it was extra.  It was a wine bar and they have the movie "Swingers" constantly playing.  Apparently Vince Vaughn stopped in to represent once.  Pretty cool considering I saw this movie randomly with... I think it was Maddy (pot-head can't remember) because my sister thought it was a good movie and several years later this random movie aids me in feeling superior to my friends.

Halt the Spun World

Haiti.  Now Chile.  The world is in chaos.  What the fuck does politics and history matter when mother nature can just wipe it all out?  Tell the truth some time and actually legitimately care for some one.  (My fortune cookie moment).

Movies:  Ninja Assassin is a less plot driven movie than Hitman.

Music Playlist:  Something with Offspring, Rise Against, Weezer, and At the Drive-in.

I'm trying to keep writing.  Kinda pushing myself to keep going.  This is the better of the things that have been going onto paper:

Halt the Spun World

Drop to your knees and beg the world to stop spinning.
She dreams of a moment where it all just stops.
Don’t close your eyes and forget me,
Just quit going the way you’re headed.
Follow me, she begs, and we’ll bypass all the chaos.
The route through the madness that only we can take

She falls to her knees.

Or maybe it’s just me and my head is spinning.
I’ve dropped down and it all just won’t stop.
Please help me get my feet planted firmly.
It’s all jaded and it’s all still spinning.
2/28/2010